If you get wasted, there's hardly anything "harder" than alcohol. I drank my first time at like 12 or 13, still remember it vividly. I was at a party with my family and my dad let me have a little bit of vodka in Sprite and was like that's it, don't ask for more etc. I ended up sneaking drink after drink when people weren't looking and puked on the lawn later in the night. Hahaha. Anyway, other than weed and alcohol which were mainstays even around the goodie-googie girl crews at my high school by senior year, I was similar to you, told myself I'd never do "hard" drugs. The only reason I ever tried them is alcohol. It's just like eating shitty food or having sex with a girl you normally wouldn't, alcohol impairs your control/judgement. People say weed is the gateway drug, not at all. I'd never experiment with a new drug on weed ever or hook up with someone I normally wouldn't.