Quote: The thing to being a Christian is to remember that you aren't sin free, won't be sin free in this world...
Then I truly feel bad for you. To have that guilt and shame constantly over your head, it must be miserable. You are never worthy of the one you MUST love.
Sounds like an abusive relationship to me. Imagine being that way to your spouse or child. Telling them that they are never good enough for you, that they're always screwing up, that they aren't worthy. And if they step out of line you'll "smite" them or send them somewhere where they will be tortured for eternity, so they'd better LOVE you. It's simply baffling to me that people can be a victim of this and think that it is OK.